Bimboability.

Disclaimer: Below is a whole series of bimbotic events by me. Don't say I didn't warn you first.

I've finally seen my rainbow after the rain. It's amazing how things can change so suddenly, I tell you. So amazing that I had to message Hanxu immediately to tell her about it.

Ok, allow me to let you in on some background information first. Remember in my previous post, I mentioned about people not believing in me?

Well, I was supposed to have a powerpoint presentation rehearsal for my only core HR module on Monday at Seng Kang, which is like, far until cannot. And because my schedule is already packed until cannot, I decided to skip my lesson for the rehearsal. But because that day, the lesson is actually important until cannot, I decided afterall that I should still go and so I messaged Girl A in my HR group that I might not be able to make it to Seng Kang and suggested I just make a recording of my speech for them to play during the rehearsal to see if everything flows.

*I'm all along a loner in my course. I do things for practicality, meaning that I go for lessons just to show my face, and I go for project meetings to do work (while all the others have fun getting distracted by occasional chit-chats etc.) Ok fine, if it's really required, I will use the word 'loser' instead of 'loner' to describe myself. But that's my choice. I didn't make effort to make friends in Uni because I already have my existing friends. So, basically, I've been suffering whenever I meet my groupmates for project meetings because I always feel very distant and out.

Check out the SMS conversation between me and Girl A:
(P.S.: I didn't save all these because of hate, but because of laziness to clear my Inbox.)

Me: Hey Girl A, I think I will not be able to go for the.. (all that I've mentioned above).

Girl A: Erm, I think we need to include you in the rehearsal. By hook or by crook you need to make time for it. This is the final presentation, please let us know another timing when you can make it. And please prepare beforehand.

Me: I decided I cannot miss my lesson because it's very important. And please understand. I just didn't want to trouble you all to change the timing for me. Anyway don't worry, I've prepared for my part.
(Actually at this point of time I already felt quite angry.)

Girl A: So why is it that you can go for the other important stuff and forgo our important stuff? Is this not important as well? This is a group project. I hope to see some commitment and effort. Make sure you are prepared. I don't want to see like how you presented the other time, totally unprepared and reading off the slides, but don't exceed timing too.

I was super shocked at how she dug up what happened so long ago just to put me down!

At this point of time, I decided to call Girl B, who's also in our group and has always been the nicest girl I know in NTU.

Me: Girl B, Girl A hates me right? Why do I feel like she's always picking on me and not listening to my opinions?

Girl B: No lah, why do you say that?

Me: Eh, I don't want to put you in a difficult position 'cause you're good friends with Girl A, but I'm afraid if I don't say it I will feel zero confidence on our actual day of presentation. I just need someone who knows what happened to be around.

Girl B: Yup, I know. You just say. It's ok.

Me: (Tells her everything and in the process felt super wrongly accused of and underestimated and.. guess what? CRIED!)

Yes!!! I don't want to admit this but I really did! I CRIED!
Super macho cum MAN cum 男人婆 Chong Han Xiang actually cried into the phone! And it's really cry until cannot!
OMG, I tell you, it's SUPER CUI!

Anyway, Girl B was very understanding. She even messaged me later and through the whole episode we became closer.

ANYWAY, I decided to cancel my tuition on Monday so as to go for the rehearsal, VERY PREPARED. I didn't want to let Girl A have chances to find fault with me anymore. It all went well. I didn't mention about the matter to Girl B when she walked me downstairs because I had to leave early for my lesson. I decided I terrorized her enough the previous day. HAHA.
Girl A and I acted like nothing happened between us.

THE BEST PART!
Yesterday, before our final presentation, Girl C (another groupmate) gave me a cup of tea, saying that it's from Girl A. My first reaction was..

HUH?!

Girl C: Erm, Girl A 买给你的.

My second reaction..

SMS to Consultant Hanxu: 妹子! Girl A bought tea for me leh! OMG! Simi dai ji?! Cua Sai!

Hanxu's wahaha-kind-of response: !!! Her 心机 very 重!

Of course, this is all a joke when I think about it after the whole matter.

Ok, so Girl A arrived later. And I asked her if the tea was really meant for me.
She replied yes.
I said thank you and continued with looking at my slides.
Then I turned to her again, still puzzled, and said: For what?

Her reply: Oh, that day I was abit harsh. Sorry.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Totally thrown off my seat, but at that moment I could just feel tears welling up in my eyes again as I told her actually I'm also sorry and I understood she meant well.

Actually I had already told myself to accept the fact that maybe she hates me from the day she talked to me like I'm useless, and all I wanted to do was prove her wrong at the final presentation. There was no hate, because she doesn't understand my life, so it's naturally to make incorrect assumptions of me. That's why I said we shouldn't blame anyone when things happen.

So, when she said sorry, it became like a bonus. I was super happy after that. To the extent that I grabbed her arm right before the presentation and said, "Girl A, I'm really happy we cleared the air. Let's do well together ok?"

I think she was abit paiseh by what I did because she was also a tomboy like me. Tomboys CANNOT stand mushiness.

At dinner, I was telling Hanxu about it. And she said that I might become good friends with her.

Then I thought, maybe! Because quite a handful of my current good friends started as enemies, like Vivis and Jason.

Enemies have an advantage:
Because they had been mean to you, whatever nice things they do, the niceness is doubled.

Anyway, this's the end of my story.
I wouldn't be blogging all these if she didn't apologise and I didn't admit I was at fault to and we ended up being friends. It's too ugly to be blogged about. I'm writing about it only 'cause it's a happy ending!

I'm so happy my Uni life ended well, despite all the rubbish in between!!!

Yours,
Hanxiang