Thoughts about grass on sides. CRAP!
Suddenly feel like talking. You know, the normal Hanxiang's nonsense. Intellectual nonsense nevertheless.
WHAT ELSE?
So why is there the saying that 'The grass is always greener on the other side?' Why do I keep hearing that from people, in different versions?
GreenER. So it's a comparison right? Tell me why we always have to compare ourselves with others? Like, ALWAYS. Is contentment so hard to achieve? I don't really like to hear this, from anybody. Sometimes I don't really care lah, but sometimes I get upset. We should all be happy! And be satisfied with what we have.
Actually I just want to hao lian to all of you about how the grass always seems the greenEST on MY SIDE.
About my darling sister, Hanxu and I:
The camp recently taught us something about our relationship. Actually it reminded us more than taught us, because all along, we've known that we can't work together. This is simply because our characters don't allow us to do that.
I'll proceed to tell you how much of a mean and insensitive elder sister I am.
My temper is damn short, maybe even shorter than a Hobbit (inspired by my brother who's been fully utilising his last few days of holidays to replay LOTR again and again at home). And many times, I just CAN'T CONTROL IT.
I'm the kind who does things first, then feel guilty later. Friends won't really know, because in front of you all, I act nice. Act only. Maybe deep down, I hate you more than I hate wearing heels. Yeah man, I'M EVIL!
Ok, back to being a SUPER mean sister.
Hanxu, Junjie and me were in-charge of one of the game stations together during the last day of camp.
My system operates in such a way that when time is running short, I'll want to get things done chopchop.
So when Hanxu appeared a little too blur to me, I told her what to do in a slightly higher volume than what would have been comfortable to her. She's always the one who gets hit. The closest ones are always the ones who get hit.
All this happened with Junjie around. That's exactly the reason that made her confront me about it 2 days later at home, explaining to me how she hated me for always putting her down with outsiders around, between sobs. YES, PEOPLE, I MADE MY SISTER CRY!
When I saw her cry, I immediately felt awkward and shot her back by reminding her of all the shit that she had dumped on me before. How lousy of me, digging up old grudges to defend myself. It's like telling her, 'Oh, we're just as lousy as each other as a sister only what! So let's continue being a lousy pair of sisters. YAY!'
And I went to sleep, not giving a damn about how my sister really felt when I did all that to her.
I told you I'm mean. I could still sleep! Typical pig behaviour lah.
Nvm. The next day, on my way to work, I started to regret what I had done. So I sent an sms to Hanxu saying sorry, but at the same time telling her she was partly to blame too, because I'm used to being overprotective of how she handles things. It's like children will always be children in the eyes of the parents. And so, being the elder sister, I will easily gan jiong.
Hanah! Correct lah, no matter how I put it, I still can't deny the fact that I'm an insensitive and unreasonable and inconsiderate piece of shit ok?! That's why I need anger-management classes what!
Our messages that morning were all totally rational and formal. Not those usual 'No lah, it's actually my fault. Sorry lah.'
NO. There were no 'lor'S, 'lah'S, 'leh'S in our messages, no mushiness, no giving in to each other in whichever direction. We really talked things out and YAY! As always, my soft-hearted and very kind sister forgave me, for the 97377849563th time.
Told you that the grass is always greenEST on my side didn't I?
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Recently, I got to know a colleague who shares similar interests as me better. Though our levels our intelligence are like, worlds apart. She's 28 and a doctor. Very nice person. No airs and even talks rubbish sometimes too. Tell me where else I can find such a doctor?
And today, after our very nice divisional lunch at Noble House Millenium (Boss's treat), she advised me to try to apply for MOH's physiotherapist scholarship because she taught me personality and qualifications are quite suitable for it. The catch: SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT GRADES I GOT AND AM GETTING. Scholarship? Siao ah!?
But still, it's nice to have someone have faith in me. I'm glad to have so many nice people around me, even if after I leave MOH, I realise they're meant to be just acquaintances.
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The young and courageous buaya that I mentioned in my previous post suddenly sent me a message today. It says:
If you change your number one day, tell me. It's a must!
Awwww..
No, it's not buaya-ness this time round. He knows how old I am already. See see? Kids are so charming. So REAL. They make you smile from deep within your heart.
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FINALLY, after this very long entry, I have to reinforce my point. Sorry for being so Auntie and naggy, but really,
It's not hard to be happy in life ok? Just don't expect too much, and you'll find your life getting better and better, sooner or later.
The grass on your side is really green enough! Believe it's the greenest lah, don't be greedy ya?
WHAT ELSE?
So why is there the saying that 'The grass is always greener on the other side?' Why do I keep hearing that from people, in different versions?
GreenER. So it's a comparison right? Tell me why we always have to compare ourselves with others? Like, ALWAYS. Is contentment so hard to achieve? I don't really like to hear this, from anybody. Sometimes I don't really care lah, but sometimes I get upset. We should all be happy! And be satisfied with what we have.
Actually I just want to hao lian to all of you about how the grass always seems the greenEST on MY SIDE.
About my darling sister, Hanxu and I:
The camp recently taught us something about our relationship. Actually it reminded us more than taught us, because all along, we've known that we can't work together. This is simply because our characters don't allow us to do that.
I'll proceed to tell you how much of a mean and insensitive elder sister I am.
My temper is damn short, maybe even shorter than a Hobbit (inspired by my brother who's been fully utilising his last few days of holidays to replay LOTR again and again at home). And many times, I just CAN'T CONTROL IT.
I'm the kind who does things first, then feel guilty later. Friends won't really know, because in front of you all, I act nice. Act only. Maybe deep down, I hate you more than I hate wearing heels. Yeah man, I'M EVIL!
Ok, back to being a SUPER mean sister.
Hanxu, Junjie and me were in-charge of one of the game stations together during the last day of camp.
My system operates in such a way that when time is running short, I'll want to get things done chopchop.
So when Hanxu appeared a little too blur to me, I told her what to do in a slightly higher volume than what would have been comfortable to her. She's always the one who gets hit. The closest ones are always the ones who get hit.
All this happened with Junjie around. That's exactly the reason that made her confront me about it 2 days later at home, explaining to me how she hated me for always putting her down with outsiders around, between sobs. YES, PEOPLE, I MADE MY SISTER CRY!
When I saw her cry, I immediately felt awkward and shot her back by reminding her of all the shit that she had dumped on me before. How lousy of me, digging up old grudges to defend myself. It's like telling her, 'Oh, we're just as lousy as each other as a sister only what! So let's continue being a lousy pair of sisters. YAY!'
And I went to sleep, not giving a damn about how my sister really felt when I did all that to her.
I told you I'm mean. I could still sleep! Typical pig behaviour lah.
Nvm. The next day, on my way to work, I started to regret what I had done. So I sent an sms to Hanxu saying sorry, but at the same time telling her she was partly to blame too, because I'm used to being overprotective of how she handles things. It's like children will always be children in the eyes of the parents. And so, being the elder sister, I will easily gan jiong.
Hanah! Correct lah, no matter how I put it, I still can't deny the fact that I'm an insensitive and unreasonable and inconsiderate piece of shit ok?! That's why I need anger-management classes what!
Our messages that morning were all totally rational and formal. Not those usual 'No lah, it's actually my fault. Sorry lah.'
NO. There were no 'lor'S, 'lah'S, 'leh'S in our messages, no mushiness, no giving in to each other in whichever direction. We really talked things out and YAY! As always, my soft-hearted and very kind sister forgave me, for the 97377849563th time.
Told you that the grass is always greenEST on my side didn't I?
----------------
Recently, I got to know a colleague who shares similar interests as me better. Though our levels our intelligence are like, worlds apart. She's 28 and a doctor. Very nice person. No airs and even talks rubbish sometimes too. Tell me where else I can find such a doctor?
And today, after our very nice divisional lunch at Noble House Millenium (Boss's treat), she advised me to try to apply for MOH's physiotherapist scholarship because she taught me personality and qualifications are quite suitable for it. The catch: SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT GRADES I GOT AND AM GETTING. Scholarship? Siao ah!?
But still, it's nice to have someone have faith in me. I'm glad to have so many nice people around me, even if after I leave MOH, I realise they're meant to be just acquaintances.
--------------
The young and courageous buaya that I mentioned in my previous post suddenly sent me a message today. It says:
If you change your number one day, tell me. It's a must!
Awwww..
No, it's not buaya-ness this time round. He knows how old I am already. See see? Kids are so charming. So REAL. They make you smile from deep within your heart.
------------------
FINALLY, after this very long entry, I have to reinforce my point. Sorry for being so Auntie and naggy, but really,
It's not hard to be happy in life ok? Just don't expect too much, and you'll find your life getting better and better, sooner or later.
The grass on your side is really green enough! Believe it's the greenest lah, don't be greedy ya?
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