Ra..N-d...o.M-ing again

Blogging in the office. How cool's that? Currently researching on medical specialist training in U.K., Australia, Canada and Europe. Hanah hanah.. I know none of you gives a damn about that. YOU SHALLOW PEOPLE.

This is how I'm feeling now.

Yup, a little bored plus moody plus sad.

Now I'm going to explain why I'm feeling this way. NO, actually I don't care whether you care or not. I just feel like talking about it OK?!

It's not because of work. Ok, maybe it's a little due to work. Work's boring, but work's great! One of my colleagues just shouted "早安！" to me. And she's definitely not the first. People in MOH are so nice. I like the culture here. And I've got two offices now! One here in MOH headquarters, the other in NUS's medicine side.

Ok, back to why I'm feeling out of sorts.

Reason 1:

StupiaK blogger erased my entire entry on the REAL Cinderella story yesterday! With pictures! Twinkle twinkle little stars!!! (I've decided to use "TTLS" as my swear phrase, all rights reserved!) Anyway, blogger was horrible lah. But I'll try to blog about it again.

Reason 2:

"It's not what you are, but what you don't become that hurts."
– Oscar Levant

Have you had those times when you see or hear something and you suddenly feel that it's spot-on? You feel a sensation down your spine and you wonder how anything can be SO TRUE. After reading this quote, it was instant down-the-dumps.

Ok, now have a look at this picture: Big fierce dog and helpless chick. The dog's terrible right? Scaring the chick like that.

Ya lah, actually the dog's not fierce. It even looks a bit dumb and very adorable.

What I'm trying to say is, there are some people who appear to be so bad and harmful but in fact, right inside their hearts, it is really, the opposite. I don't really know how to illustrate this. It's like those gangster movies. You've got a big bad thug who does all sorts of mean things but when he sees a vulnerable child in the middle of the road about to be hit by an oncoming car, he's the first to dash out and save the kid and risk losing his own life instead. Yup, I'm naive enough to believe that's not only in the movies and such people really do exist.

And there are those who deliberately try to distance themselves away from others by doing certain things that they know will drive people away. I don't know, maybe it's defence. Or they have their fears. Or maybe they don't want to get too involved because in the end, their hearts are the most brittle if it all comes to naught one day.

Anyway, these people are always difficult to get near to. But once you gain access, somehow you'll be amazed, because they're just not like the others. Then again, it's really really hard to know them in this way.

Yes yes, I'm really bored, that's why I've time to ponder on such issues. Or perhaps I'm just WULIAO, cos I often think of such things? Oops.

*back to research*