Dedicated to T.H.E.M.

Ever wondered why I always place my family as first priority? Friends would know, if not, they would not still be my friends, because I am the kind who unabashedly declares even to my close friends that, if I really had to choose, it would be my family instead of friends.. Eeewwww.. Why should I have to be so blatantly honest, can't I just entertain my friends a little first? Right? Erm.. No thanks, I don't like to disappoint.. As a result, all my friends who are still with me now are those who are able to accept this fact that I myself can't even change, no matter how long it takes.. Sometimes I wonder why my relationships are always stillborn.. Maybe that's the reason.. If my boy and my family asks me out at the same time, guess what? Yes, I'll say no to the guy! Oh God.. That is quite bad huh? Ya lor.. that's why, DO NOT DISAPPOINT.. That's one of my principles in life.. If you can't fulfill, don't promise you can, and go back on it later.. SUCKS! Aiya, no lah.. I think I just haven't met a guy I like enough to make me want to strike a balance (quoting Hanxu), or maybe I'm still not desperate enough to have kids yet, although I MUST HAVE THEM some day.. Haha.. Digressing again..
Back to my family.. I'm quite sure nobody can stand my original self if I really show it to them.. Read on to find out why..

Scenario
The day just ended.. I just realised I failed a test (BIG one, if not normally I would be too slacky to care.. CMI hor?).. I'm hungry cause I missed the bus.. The bus was crowded and I was like one of the sardines in a can (Oh my god, I actually remember how to use phrases learnt in primary school!).. I didn't see half an eyecandy.. YA, so basically the day was horrible.. Therefore, by the time I reached home, I'm already ready to spit fire, and so, I DO! I pass snide remarks at my mother, who's normally the first person I see when I get home.. Snide remarks ONLY cause I can't possibly shout at her right? She's still, MY MOTHER.. This can happen to my father sometimes also.. You're thinking: Huh, even parents already so mean, then 如果是你的弟弟妹妹，那他们不是死？Yes, you are very smart, cause that's exactly what happens.. They will kena.. Somehow I am always able to find reasons to be irritated with them and scold them for reasons that I truly, at that moment, feel are superb and perfectly right.. Now, for the responses I get..

Hanxu
She'll say the standard, "Orh.. Sorry sorry.." She's been with me through nearly all my life, save the first 2 years of it.. We know each other the best.. There's something about her that I can't stand, that's being late, so that's often the reason I throw my temper at her.. Sometimes she does it for good reasons, but I still can't stand it.. I wonder how she can always stand my 臭脸, but I guess she has mastered it through 19 years of practice.. More to come I guess.. Unless a miracle happens and I genuinely become a better person with a better personality..

Hanyan
Moves away and pretends that nothing really happened.. She's cool, this girl.. But deep down she really makes a lot of effort to bear with me and my nonsense.. She often tells my parents and siblings that they should understand me.. Apparently, according to her, I am the act fierce fierce, heart soft soft (嘴硬心软) type of sister, so, as long as in the end, she still gets her cheese fries and chocolates, then it's ok for her to be screamed at.. HAHA, no lah, the last part is made up by me.. Anyway, you get the idea lah huh?

Juefun
He'll mumble, "Okok.." Sometimes he might still thank me for the food I bought for him.. This is quite funny.. It's like, 'thank you' is on the tip of his tongue already, and just before it gets out, I shout.. Because the words are already coming out, he just has to let them come out, JUST BEFORE he frowns at being scolded.. So it's abit like, he feels he shouldn't have said thank you but still he said it so it's kind of not worth it..

So tell me, with all these sacrifices that they have made for me, how can I say NO to them? Friends and relatives who don't manage to see beyond the surface always comment that I am really a good sister who does a lot for her siblings.. But the truth is, I always feel that they've done much more for me.. They give in ways that others are unable to witness cause I simply can't display my true self in public, if not the Zoo might just set up a dragon sanctuary for me to go stay and blow fire, safely, without harming anyone.. Yes, so before you actually experience how my siblings have suffered, do not assume and conclude that I am a good sister, cause appearances can often be deceiving..

That said, I can't deny that my parents and sibling do have their flaws..

My mother enjoys giving little auntie-ish comments about people which can't really hurt BUT are still auntie-ish (you get what I mean), snatching my food sometimes and acting before that, that she does not even enjoy eating.. Please, can I like, faint?

My father's sarcasm is really super powerful (sometimes I think I inherited that from him, DAMN!).. And on top of that he's overcautious, always worrying that my phone will fall off the table and stuff, and he says some of the weirdest and unnecessary things at some of the weirdest and most unnecessary times.. Next time when it happens I'll blog again.. It's hard to come up with examples suddenly..

My Hanxu sister acts cute like 24 hrs a day, and acts serious 24 hrs a day outside, so that everyone thinks I am the younger sister who talks rubbish and embarrases her elder sister.. She makes me worry with some of the things she does but still insists that she is independent.. Alright, she might be independent, but only for certain things.. So there, even more troublesome, cause I have to decide which matters I should help her on and which I should let her do alone, if not, she might just decide that I don't understand her enough and still thinks she's a baby and blah blah blah.. Whatever.. This is part of growing up, the stage when you think you have grown up fully, and it's time to, you know, be strong.. As for me, wth, she's got her rights to act strong.. Hahaha.. Ok lah, she really has matured alot over the years, but still, she needs our support ya?

Hanyan is proud of herself for her personal cleanliness and hygiene but some of the things she does are just.. contradictory! It might not be so bad if she's not so fussy about being clean for some things.. You get what I mean? If you want, be totally clean and tidy, if not, forget it, don't irritate us.. HAHA.. And she's got a weird temper.. It's different from my bad temper.. She'll cry VERY easily when she has her mood swings but everytime she does that we would laugh at her.. No point worrying too much, if not we'll have to worry quite regularly.. *headache*

Juefun has actually changed for the better.. He used to be so addicted to online games that it caused me depression (sort of).. cause I just can't watch my brother waste his time on dumb games and not do anything to save him! But I don't use correct methods, so we often ended up holding World War ThreeS in the house.. That's over for now.. Nowadays he's into talking like this: 'BB!' That stands for byebye.. So I decided to do it full power by adding 'GTG', 'TC' and all the nonsense into the collection.. Please be reminded that all these, which are supposed to be TYPED only, are actually SPOKEN in the house, thank you! What's up with us, I seriously don't know..

STOP! Revealed just a bit too much.. Trust me, readers, I want to tell you more, I really do, BUT I can't, my family members still have to face the public.. My father still has to work, my mum still has to go to the market to buy stuff, my sisters still have to get married and my brother still has to be the 大哥大in school.. There, they still have to lead their lives properly.. :)

My family members are like pieces of my heart.. Without anyone of them, I'll not be complete.. I'm a strong believer of reincarnation because of my religion.. And so I'm really thankful to myself for whatever I have done in my previous lives to land me in this life, a life so deeply intertwined with the lives of those in my family.. And I'm thankful for Papa, Mama, Hanxu, Hanyan and Juefun for being Papa, Mama, Hanxu, Hanyan and Juefun.. WE, are THE REAL INCREDIBLES! We just prefer to be humble and lie low.. if not, risk getting massacred wholesale someday, because jealousy.. results.. in.. crime.. HUR..HUr..hur..hurrr.. :P