Strength. And life. Random thoughts.

I think a blind man illustrates strength very well.. So if u want to know what that word means, spot one and feeeel.. Today I was on the bus, lost in thoughts about some recent troubling matter when this blind man boarded the bus.. I guess I was supposed to move to the inner seat to let him sit outside.. But I was simply in a daze.. and his stick( I don't know what you call that exactly) hit my knee and he sat opposite me..(I was sitted on the seat facing the front of the bus, with another two seats facing the back in front of me) So he settled down opposite me.. I was silently scolding myself abit for being so blur and not giving up my seat for him, coz I think I was supposed to do that? Haha.. Anyway, I started thinking as I observed him.. He was listening intently to everytime the bus opened its doors at a stop.. It's an interesting thing to watch because not every stopping means it's at a bus-stop.. as in, at times it might just be the traffic lights.. So to know when he's supposed to alight, he had to count the stops that the bus had passed, if not, he might very possibly end up getting off at the wrong stop and having trouble finding his way to his destination.. Normally, I might not have noticed this, but today just happened to be a day when I'm actually, u know, thinking.. And I'm really impressed and amazed by how much a person can concentrate so hard when he NEEDS to.. This was something I was discussing with a friend also.. Man is often directed by his environment and the circumstances.. We often find ourselves in awkward situations where we don't really have a choice as to what we really want.. We complain that God is unfair, we whine that life is hard, some of us who are more direct might even just curse and swear.. But ultimately, that's what we have and will ever get.. There are still times when we are happy and in bliss, but do we remember to be thankful when that happens? I think most of us just pay attention to the bad parts.. We always take good times for granted.. Why? Human nature I suppose.. Still, much as we might feel frustrated with our somehow fixed fates, we still have to react appropriately to the situation, to what happens in our lives.. We can't just say things like, "Aiya.. We only live this one life.. Why care so much?" Ok.. maybe we can TALK like that, but we cannot just DO it this way ya? We still have to responsible for our actions simply coz our lives just isn't all about us only.. There are still feelings of the people around us whom we have to take care of.. We're always caught in situations where we have to give and take.. Let's say you have 5 dollars.. Your dog likes dog food, and your cat likes cat food.. but you've only got 5 dollars.. You just have to split the sum and satisfy both your pets a little.. They might not be fully fed for the time being, but at least, you are able to ease their hunger for a while.. right? I don't know.. I feel that minimising the pain for everyone is better than making one person very happy and the other very sad.. Strike a balance, that's the way to do it.. Never mind if you don't understand.. I don't really get what I'm saying either.. Anyway, another issue.. I'm always telling Hanxu I'll never get married.. Because I am a strong believer of creating one's own fate.. That's why I always find it impossible to accept a guy who likes me first, coz that would mean giving in to what has been 'planned' for me.. Damn OFF huh? Wouldn't that mean I'll never get to find my prince charming? Imagine this: He comes for me riding on his horse.. He's THE ONE for me.. he truly is, just that unfortunately, he likes me before I have feelings for him, and therefore, I give him the cold look and make him turn back.. JUST BECAUSE.. yup, he came first before I went for him and so, it's fate and I shouldnt bow down to it.. The funny thing is.. the people I start to have feelings for first never ever respond! Can I like, trade those who likes me with those whom I like? Then things would be perfect.. But.. Sorry huh, hanxiang, no such shop that specialises in such dealings.. Yup, think I'm sort of jinxed this life in this aspect lah.. But guess what, I'm cool.. I'll be waiting for the guy, my TRUE PRINCE CHARMING who'll make an effort to negotiate with cupid to strike both of us at.the.same.time before he even appears before me! Hahaha.. I'm nuts, but nvm.. This is MY blog!!! :P