If you're still here.

For a while there I forgot I have a blog.
For a while there I forgot I have this space that maintains my sanity, to remind me of how lucky I am.

Are you still reading?
How have you been?
I am not very awake now. My fingers are doing the typing but I'm not, you know, really conscious of what I am doing. I no longer know what's right and wrong, what's good for me and what's not anymore.

Well, everyone has been through this before, many times in fact, haven't you?
It's called learning.
Learning is not easy. But get past it and you become a better, stronger person.
Sometimes you pay a price for learning. I hope I don't end up trading something I would regret trading off, off.
I'm always so close to doing that.

Sometimes pride is the cheapest thing to pay.
No good holding onto your pride when you could be losing something more important if you do.
What is pride anyway? Does it talk to you? It can't hug, can't put its forehead against yours, can't do nothing else except create distance between you and others.

Everyone should have dignity, but pride?
Put it in the garbage can in front of people who deserve to see your heart.
Pride is a shield. You don't need it in front of people who love you because they won't hurt you.
Pride changes truth into prickly needles.
Pride hurts. The truth doesn't, contrary to popular belief.

I think I've gotta run.
Duty calls.
Ok bye.