烦

有时我觉得自己真的很.....

Was talking to Dragonboy on MSN yesterday.

He still wants me to go watch his friends and him play their TorCHER (Torture. Oh great, now that I'm typing it out, it sounds like I'm the teaCHER they wanna torCHER.)Game that they came up with long before the examinations.

He said I'd better not join in 'cause it will be quite rough. I should just sit, watch and laugh at the Prisoners being torCHERed.
It's either his school is the heavenly kind with no tomboys or I've successfully given him an angelic impression of me.

Or maybe that of the Devil. Watch and laugh?! Wah lao, sadistic.

But it was really sweet of him to be inviting me. Warmed my heart so much.

I texted his father.

"Mr ****, Long asked me to continue to go. Spend time with him. Can I still clock in now that his examinations are over?"

"Yes, stay. KidS needS you."

I'm not bothered about the grammatical error there.
I'm just very disturbed now.
If I continue to go, Dragonboy will grow even more dependent on me. Then it'll be harder to leave.

I'm selfish. Because alot of times, I follow my feelings when doing things.
I like Dragonboy, I go.
I don't like Dragonboy because his learning attitude sucks, I leave.
Well, I told myself I'd be leaving.

Applies to so many other things.

Should I stay? Or leave?
Or, wait till I see his cannot-make-it results then leave?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I HATE THIS.

Bye.