Come condemn me.
I seriously believe now, that when I'm enjoying too much, it'll most probably be hell later.
There's a balance to everything. It's so scary everytime it happens lah! Whenever I'm having a good time, I'll have to start worrying about what shit I'll be getting into next.
Like how I had a super fun trip to Bangkok and when I returned, I got all the nonsense anyone can possibly get, ALL AT ONE GO.
Ok lah. It's really not all that mysterious afterall but because I'm a totally irresponsible person who doesn't give a damn about integrity.
Right after I touched down on Monday, my attachment mentor from NTU called to ask for my attachment report.
ATTACHMENT REPORT?!
Oh ya, I only sent her a soft copy, knowing that a hard copy's needed too. But I was going to Bangkok so I happily skipped that procedure and proceeded to assume that she would be kind enough to help me print my report out.
NO. She didn't. Of course, why would she? It's my responsibility.
So I promised her to hand it in the next day.
The next day, at 11.50a.m., Hanxiang was in Kbox with Val and Zolene and Sister when Madam Mentor called again.
I was like, "Oh ya! I'm supposed to go to school today! SHET! Ok nevermind. Answer call first. Finish Kbox and go school."
Main thought: Finish Kbox. (I'm really hopeless.)
But..
"I told you to hand it up to me by 12p.m., Hanxiang!"
"Sorry!!! I'll be there by 1p.m.!"
As a matter of fact, I missed the part of the phone conversation when she told me to hand it up by 12p.m.
I don't only have a problem with being responsible for myself. I have a hearing problem too. GREAT.
In school..
"This is not the format that your report should be written in! Didn't you check the website? How did you survive your internship without following instructions? I'll be on medical leave for 3 days from tomorrow onwards. You know you're holding me up?"
Ok, by this time I was already super embarrassed. Poor mentor's not feeling well and frustrated and my report's going to be later than late. Anyway, I asked for 2 hours' time to tidy up what I had done.
THANK GOD FOR MY GUARDIAN ANGEL NEO YING YING WHO NEVER FAILS TO BE THERE TO HELP ME OUT OF THE SCHOOL SHIT I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF STUCK IN.
PLUS the fact that I actually had my report done without knowing it. That one, I only passed to my employer but not my mentor. OK I'M BLUR TOO.
Anyway, I used the sample report Ying sent me to complete my formal report in the extra time given.
After handing up the report and leaving my mentor's office, I was worried!
For the next half hour or so.
Then I decided to forget about it. Because, for your information, I've retaken like countless subjects and my Honors has been gone since like, Year 1. So it's really pointless worrying about how she'll mark me down for being a super lousy NTU student.
Am I hopeless or hopeless you tell me? After experiencing this kind of rubbish I can still talk like nothing's happened. I think it's because I'm really at fault this time round, so it's no use mourning about it anyway.
Seriously, I'm thinking this for the 86483th time. Why can I be so concerned about things like volleyball but when it comes to things like school work, I'm so.. CUI?
Lesson to learn from this:
Don't ever trust me or depend on me. I mean, seriously. I can't do anything properly except talk nonsense.
Don't do projects with me.
Don't ask me to help you settle urgent matters.
I don't know. Just don't think I should be the one you can work with.
NO, I'm not even acting depressed and inferior here. It's just that I always cannot make it when it's about doing real work. *sighs*
There's a balance to everything. It's so scary everytime it happens lah! Whenever I'm having a good time, I'll have to start worrying about what shit I'll be getting into next.
Like how I had a super fun trip to Bangkok and when I returned, I got all the nonsense anyone can possibly get, ALL AT ONE GO.
Ok lah. It's really not all that mysterious afterall but because I'm a totally irresponsible person who doesn't give a damn about integrity.
Right after I touched down on Monday, my attachment mentor from NTU called to ask for my attachment report.
ATTACHMENT REPORT?!
Oh ya, I only sent her a soft copy, knowing that a hard copy's needed too. But I was going to Bangkok so I happily skipped that procedure and proceeded to assume that she would be kind enough to help me print my report out.
NO. She didn't. Of course, why would she? It's my responsibility.
So I promised her to hand it in the next day.
The next day, at 11.50a.m., Hanxiang was in Kbox with Val and Zolene and Sister when Madam Mentor called again.
I was like, "Oh ya! I'm supposed to go to school today! SHET! Ok nevermind. Answer call first. Finish Kbox and go school."
Main thought: Finish Kbox. (I'm really hopeless.)
But..
"I told you to hand it up to me by 12p.m., Hanxiang!"
"Sorry!!! I'll be there by 1p.m.!"
As a matter of fact, I missed the part of the phone conversation when she told me to hand it up by 12p.m.
I don't only have a problem with being responsible for myself. I have a hearing problem too. GREAT.
In school..
"This is not the format that your report should be written in! Didn't you check the website? How did you survive your internship without following instructions? I'll be on medical leave for 3 days from tomorrow onwards. You know you're holding me up?"
Ok, by this time I was already super embarrassed. Poor mentor's not feeling well and frustrated and my report's going to be later than late. Anyway, I asked for 2 hours' time to tidy up what I had done.
THANK GOD FOR MY GUARDIAN ANGEL NEO YING YING WHO NEVER FAILS TO BE THERE TO HELP ME OUT OF THE SCHOOL SHIT I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF STUCK IN.
PLUS the fact that I actually had my report done without knowing it. That one, I only passed to my employer but not my mentor. OK I'M BLUR TOO.
Anyway, I used the sample report Ying sent me to complete my formal report in the extra time given.
After handing up the report and leaving my mentor's office, I was worried!
For the next half hour or so.
Then I decided to forget about it. Because, for your information, I've retaken like countless subjects and my Honors has been gone since like, Year 1. So it's really pointless worrying about how she'll mark me down for being a super lousy NTU student.
Am I hopeless or hopeless you tell me? After experiencing this kind of rubbish I can still talk like nothing's happened. I think it's because I'm really at fault this time round, so it's no use mourning about it anyway.
Seriously, I'm thinking this for the 86483th time. Why can I be so concerned about things like volleyball but when it comes to things like school work, I'm so.. CUI?
Lesson to learn from this:
Don't ever trust me or depend on me. I mean, seriously. I can't do anything properly except talk nonsense.
Don't do projects with me.
Don't ask me to help you settle urgent matters.
I don't know. Just don't think I should be the one you can work with.
NO, I'm not even acting depressed and inferior here. It's just that I always cannot make it when it's about doing real work. *sighs*
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