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I haven't been having a purpose in life for nearly 3 whole months.
Makes me wonder what gave me the courage to quit my job 3 months back.
Crazy, so crazy. So me.
If only I were farsighted enough. My teacher used to say, for things that are impossible, use WERE in sentences like "If only I/you/he/she/they WERE.."
Probably I should be glad that I'm so ordinary. At least I am now not too angry with myself for having done something like that.
Actually I'm not unhappy. In fact, I am happier than I was working.
I am making my family happy by cooking for them.
I am stress-free.
I have no complaints about work.

But I know this great life is short-lived. It ends as soon as my bank balance zeroes. In fact, it'll be sooner than that 'cause the minimum balance the bank allows us to have is 500dollars before they start charging you a fine monthly.

Don't know if your bank is as cruel as mine.

And I don't like the fact that my parents are worrying about the coming of that day.

So for the first and hopefully the last time, I'm saying this:

GOD, THROW ME BACK TO HELL.





By the way, I was thinking that day that if I were to have a Christian name, it will be Hella, 'cause a friend once said that once you get to know Han Xiang, all hell breaks loose.

Buhbye!