Random update.

Hmm.. let's see, what have I done for this period of time that I have not been blogging?
Yes, it's been a longlong period of time, which means I'm going to be super random if you don't mind.

Christmas 2008 was quite alot of fun. And quite emotional I think. Lots of emotions, not expressed though. All the meetups with the important people in my life made me really happy.
Note: Emotional doesn't necessarily mean feeling upset. Positive emotions are emotions too. EMO, is feeling upset, at least for the youngsters nowadays.

New year was really just alright. When crossing over to the next year just means watching the second hand tick from 11.59.59pm of 2008 to 12 midnight of 2009, it really means nothing at all, especially for the average person who's not the least hyped up about countdowns.

I have celebrated my birthday, which is not even here yet, twice. One by my colleagues and one with Vivis.
I'm getting older earlier than I should! So shortchanged!

Oh.. something annoyed me a great deal on Friday. Can you imagine how much grief I got? So much so that it was enough to wreck my Fabulous-Friday?
In essence, I don't get why people with higher authority, at a more important position, whatever, cannot say sorry to someone smaller, lower.

I was tasked to do an analysis of my product class's profit margin.
My boss gave those whose class was affected a summary of the profit margin each class generated and wanted us to go drilldown and let him know what happened.
I was supposed to do it and let my senior review.
I decided to use fileA because the numbers there tally with those on my boss's summary.
My senior insisted I should use fileB because, well.. whenever he insists, he REALLY INSISTS.
So after arguing with him a little and seeing it going nowhere, as it is everytime he argues with me, I decided to just not waste time and listen to him.
In the end, my boss asked why we used fileB despite feeling that something is wrong with the data in there.
I was dumbfounded. Actually I could have just pointed fingers, but as usual, I'm too high and self-righteous (in my own silly way which I swear I'll try to change!!! ARGH!)to do that. I mumbled it's my senior who advised me to use fileB though, but only for ONCE.
When my boss said I should not kept on doubting if I felt something was wrong, I just said what's done is done and I'll do it again, all smiles - which I really don't mind.
What disappointed me most was that my senior didn't apologise in any way, even if indirectly.
Then I remembered my other senior telling me before that I'll be a teacher who gets bullied by students if I ever become one, because I'm always saying sorry and realisation dawned on me that most probably every adult would have this mentality.

Please tell me, what's wrong with apologising if you're really wrong?
If you ask me, I'll tell you that on the contrary, it does nothing but good. I'll respect someone who makes mistakes, but admits it and says sorry. Someone like Jose, up there but is never too high to apologise.
And therefore, after one year and a half, no matter how nice my senior sometimes is, how much he's protective of me, he will NEVER earn my respect.

I suddenly thought of something that happened yesterday. A father was trying to push his baby pram between Hanyan and some other person. He didn't say 'Excuse me' and naturally not 'Sorry' when his pram hit Hanyan's ankle (we call such accidents RAMMING). Hanyan ended up reflectively saying sorry instead, like she was in Mr Daddy's way.

I told Hanyan, "It's ok, somehow we're always the one apologising, even if it's not really our fault."
Not that I'm saying it's good to actually be apologising profusely for everything, but DUH! THEN WHAT'S SO HARD ABOUT DOING IT WHEN IT'S YOUR FAULT?!

Ok, I'm done.
It's over and today's a new day.
As Trina said, we're too shallow to bear grudges. Need our brains for shopping plans.