All at the same time.

Have been nicely treated these days. Thanks to the last module I'm taking in NTU. The higher powers love me afterall, so they're blessing me with friends even in my last module.

As I was saying, these friends seem more real compared to some others from my core modules. Maybe because there's less competition?

No pictures though. New friends. Don't want to scare them lah.

I'm wondering if I deserve all this kindness, because I'm going to do something unkind tonight. That is, to call my tuition girl's mother up and tell her I'm not going to teach her anymore. Yes, she's going to have her PSLE in like, 3 month's time, but I've sort of decided. I want to be firm with my decision, say NO to being soft-hearted.

Hanxiang has been weak enough!

I'm doing this mostly because the two sisters have been really cruel to Teacher Hanxiang. I was asking her that say if it's me who has changed, if not, why has her attitude during tuition changed?

She said I haven't changed and that she just feels tuition is sian nowadays.
She asked me if I can stop coming in a very irritated way.
She can't wait to close the door after I exit her house after tuition.
She whispers things to her younger sister and they laugh together while looking at me.
She doesn't appreciate the extended datelines I give her for her homework and refuses to complete them.

Ok, have I changed?
I keep asking myself this, in case it's really me who is causing her to change.

Is it wrong to always find fault with myself first before blaming others? Or am I, like what friends have said, being too indecisive?

Have I been too nice to the kid?

It's so sad you know, when you realise things like this, that the tuition kid whom you have always treated as your own sister and liked you alot too has lost interest in you. *sighs*

Am I thinking too much for just one little matter?

I reconsidered my decision AGAIN last night, when I was having supper with the new friends. I thought I should be nice to everyone around me since they're all so nice to me too, though they're not the same people. You know, like, pass it on?

Ok, I know, I'm damn-superly-dilly-dally. But the mother has been really kind to me. ARGH!

I just don't want to break the promise I gave to the girl's mother ok? Giving tuition might seem minor to some of you but it's not. It's a job no matter how small it is, and what I do affects the kid.

I thought I can bear with her daughter's nonsense till the end of her exams but I don't see how I can help her now that she's deliberately trying to do badly. I think if I hang on to this task, I'll be doing more bad than good and just wasting the girl's time and the mother's money.



OK, TONIGHT.