He Could Detest (company name altered)

OMG, I've got SO MUCH in my mind I can hardly breathe, so all I do is breathe and look like I'm stoning. But actually my mind's playing chapters in fast motion. The feeling's crappy.

When I think, I blog. When I blog, I think. Hmm.. something like that, anyway. See, going bonkers.

Ok, anyway I went for my last interview at He Could Detest (name of company edited as advised by Alastair), for the post of Consultant, a job less than prestigious if you thought otherwise, but the CEO already made it sound real tough.

It felt like getting put down during the interview, but come to think of it now, the CEO was just trying to prepare me for the worst so that people who choose to work there have nothing to complain about 'cause yes, the job can be shitty but you chose it so you have to bear with it. Which is actually very responsible of the company I think. At least they don't make the innocent suffer for no reason.

So, in essense, I think I'm not going to get the job lah, 'cause I sort of committed suicide.

Bits and pieces from the interview, in order of increasing suicide level:

Scene 1
CEO: How long do you intend to stay on the job?
Me: At least 1-2 years. (already feeling guilty that I am overpromising because deep down I only intend to stay for 6 months.)
CEO: See, young people like you expect people to train you and then you quit after you learn something. You have to responsible to your sales team.. blah.

1 down.

Scene 2
CEO: Did you apply for other jobs?
Me: DUH! (Ok, I didn't say that.) Yes I did.
CEO: For what jobs?
Me: HR, public relations etc.
CEO: This job is not HR you know? (Actually he cut me off right after I mentioned HR.)
Me: Actually I linked this job to HR with how I can help people find the right jobs.
CEO: This is a sales job, I believe they told you?
Me: Erm, but if I match the wrong people to the wrong jobs, the company will also suffer, like a bad name?

Scene 3 (continuation of Scene 2)
CEO: This is your problem, you are too feeling. On this job, your responsibility is to close sales. The applicant and company are mature. They know if they really want to work, it's not your responsibility if they are compatible or not.. blah.
Imagine, you inroduce a boy to a girl or vice versa. If they don't get married in the end, is it your problem? Do you blame yourself? That's your weakness! You are not God. You must be responsible for your sales and your team, that's all.
Me: (Getting some idea this is not my type of job already.) Errm, yes, I guess that's a weakness of mine, in the corporate world.

Scene 4 (finale)
CEO: Ok, last question.
Me: Does it pay to be honest in this job?
CEO: What do you think? Of course, I'm not going to ask you to go cheat/lie/KILL. You just need to make sure you close sales and don't become a liability to your team.



Actually at some point of time in the beginning of the interview I already felt like bursting out laughing.
Firstly, because of the way the CEO stared at me.
Secondly, to start with, I'm not that keen on the job. Sales leh. I'd rather go be a children's gym instructor, which I applied for but haven't/willnever get back to me. *heart pain*
Thirdly, he's just like anybody's father. I felt that he was trying to teach young things like us THE REAL DEAL. He was acting fierce only lah I think. Somehow I felt he meant well.

I think I'll be much better doing something I really like. You know, those customer-service or motherly-or-can-take-care-of-people stuff. Maybe the CEO is right, I'm not rational enough.

Oh whatever. His parting words were, "You gotta think about it ok? Go think about it!"

Macam I'm the one hiring him. HAHA. Super cute huh?
Like what they told me, he's just trying to bring out the worst, so that whoever takes up the job are those who REALLY want the job.

Ok, I'm cui. I am deterred by what he told me.

BUT, so what? At least I know myself better now.

Anyway, the personality test he let me do revealed that I don't particularly like stability. Thought I do!

Ok, bye!!!